It's Like... it's like waking up with your eyes closed, wondering what time it is and why you woke up it's like watching a movie with the sound turned off it's like sucking marrow out of a chicken bone, savouring the taste of blood it's like seeing something you know you will never see again the rest of your life it's like crying yourself to sleep, knowing you will wake up with swollen eyes and a puffy face it's like being excited and afraid for something you've never imagined it's like breaking the perfect surface of newly opened peanut butter it's like looking at a beautiful girl, and wondering if she would it's like biting your lips, wincing when you've bitten too deep it's like the warmth of skin against skin, yours on someone else's it's like a firm handshake and a reassuring smile it's like imagining a monster under your bed, breathing hard and shallow it's like waiting for an sms that never came it's like ho
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Untukmu bahasamu sakitkanku, kawan angin dan hujan pun katakan yg sama mataku perih pedih, kawan hatiku ikut menangis aku ingin kau bahagia, teman tak mau pandang lara disana cobalah kamu senang, teman hentikan hatiku teriris apakah kini aku harus menghilang? tinggalkan kamu kedua kalinya? entah mengapa tawamu palsu bagiku senyummu tak terpancar dari mata hanya sakit disana salahku, aku tahu aku tak mau jalani itu lagi bukan itu arah kita tapi tak kuharapkan perpisahan memang tak begitu seharusnya PS: I see what I see and I know what I know. Your words lie but I know you better. Ini khusus buat cta : ini boleh dicoba. bisa dilakukan sendiri di rumah. tp jgn lupa ajak org lain buat bangunin kamuw ya. 1. tekan pembuluh jugular di leher kamuw. itu yg biasa dipake org di film2 buat cek org masih idup ato udah ko'it. 2. tekan yg kiri dan yg kanan, ga usah terlalu kenceng yg penting keteken. 3. bila mulai berkunang2, itu normal. teruskan menekan. kalo udah lemes boleh minta org laen bant
Things i've abused the alphabet. i should go to jail. but this is really all i do with my life. talk about my life. i. am. an. open. book. read me carefully. read me over and over. you find new things as you go along. things of interest, things of complete unimportance, just things. my life is cluttered with things strewn around my room. it's messy and surely beetlejuice would approve, but i find things easily. most times they're not the things i want to find, but i stumble upon them anyway. i've tried burying them in my closet of neverending unwanted things, but they tend to find their way out of it and lie around where i'm sure to step on them. how amusing. i've abused the alphabet. oh, i forgot a few letters. Q. X. Z. there we go. the whole alphabet.
Lari Saya lihat mereka, ayah ibu saya. Kami bahagia. Saya punya panggilan kecil. Kami melakukan banyak hal bersama. Satu hari, entah kenapa, saya marah besar. Mereka coba tenangkan saya tapi saya tidak mau dengar. Saya kabur, hilang begitu lama. Lalu saya kembali, karena saya tersesat. Saya takut. Saya ingin kembali pada orang tua saya. Sampai dirumah, tapi mereka tidak ada. Saya masuk ke kamar dan berbaring di tempat tidur. Dan saya menunggu mereka. Mengharap mereka pulang. Rasanya berbulan mereka pergi, dan pandangan saya mulai pudar. Tangan kanan saya tergantung lemah di pinggir tempat tidur. Kemudian pintu kamar saya terbuka, dan ayah masuk, memanggil nama saya. Tapi dia bukan ayah, dan ibu bukan ibu. Semuanya berubah. Saya menjadi gelap, dan mereka selalu terlihat sedih dan bermasalah. Saya lebih sering diam dan mengamati. Mereka berusaha keras mengembalikan situasi seperti biasanya lagi. Tapi saya selalu dalam kamar, melakukan hal" saya sendiri. Saya menutup diri dan menjauh
Why do you love me? Hey! hey I missed you so much. yeah, me too How was ur day? okay Oh.... u ok? um... can i ask u sumthin? Sure. What is it? ... .. why do u love me? ... u have to answer this. i have to know. i need this I just do. I love u just because. oh... cuma itu... Hhh... I like being here, with u. It feels comfortable. It feels warm... until u find somewhere else better No! Jangan pernah ngmg gitu. I know I don't seem like the best person but I do try. * :) * it's ok. i know. but if u do find somewhere better, tell me Do u want me to stay? Atau pergi sekarang? i like having u here. i love u. i just don't understand why Then stop. If u want me to stay, hold me. Don't show me the door and expect me to leave any time. I want to stay. okay. sorry. i just don't understand why You don't have to. I just do. aku mau tanya satu hal padamu kamu harus jujur jangan bohongi aku ini penting aku harus tahu aku bukan orang penting bukan anak pejabat orangtuaku sederha
Damai Wajahnya kusut dan pucat. Dia berjalan terseok, masuk ke rumah kecil yg disewanya bersama tiga orang teman. Di luar hujan deras. T-Shirt putih polos menempel ke badannya yg menggigil kedinginan. Di ruang tamu ada yg sedang makan. Dia berjalan pelan, kepala tertunduk. "Woi! Gila! Darimana aja lu? Ngapain lu diluar ujan"an? Mandi ye?!" Dia hanya mengangguk dan melambai. Berjalan terus ke kamar. "Nyet! Tampang lu idiot abis. Kok lu baru pulang sekarang sih? Lu bilang mo nganterin gue ke rumah Vivi." Dia mengangkat bahu. "Motor lu gue bawa yah! Ntar lagi tapi. Masih ujan banget." Dia terus melangkah ke arah kamarnya seolah tidak mendengar. Masuk ke dalam dan mengunci pintu. pada suatu hari aku akan pergi dari sini jauh dari teriakan orang" yg tidak mengerti aku akan temukan tempat yg baru dimana tidak ada yg mengenal aku disana aku akan bebas menjadi orang yg berbeda dari sekarang aku akan punya teman" baru tinggal di lingkungan baru disan
Ask, and it shall be provided to you (or something like that) Update on my financial state: 1. Amount of money in pocket currently AU$ 0.65 (not enough for anything) 2. Amount of money in withdrawable bank account as of this morning AU$ 1.58 (making it un withdrawable) 3. Amount of money owing to the very nice people around me about AU$ 25.00 (I don't keep specific count, really) Update on food stock: 1. Setelah dicek, masih ada 4 bungkus Indomie (Praise Gawd!) 2. Satu bungkus besar Hershey's chocolates (wo-hoo!) 3. Tiga batang Silver Queen. 4. Seperempat kilo beras. 5. Setengah bungkus frozen buncis. 6. Saos" yg mungkin bisa berguna di kemudian hari. 7. Dua sachet kopi ginseng. 8. Satu dus hot chocolate bubuk. 9. Meises Ceres beberapa bungkus. Sekarang jadi rajin baca newsletter universitas, karena setiap minggu ada laporan dimana aja dan kapan aja ada makanan gratis. Baru aja gue nyomot kue dan kopi gratis, courtesy of "Love your Arse week" di UWA. That's l