Aren't you sick of me yet?

What a wonderful world A caucasian Australian male introduced me to a new word today. "Gook". It's a bad word for "Asian" or "Chinese". Kind of like "chink". I called him a white boy. He called me a racist bitch. ... ... ... ... ... Bwahahahahahaha.... *am i the only one laughing here?* What a wonderful world we live in. Another strange fact: most of the men I know think they are the ugliest, most undesirable person in the world and they will never have any girlfriends and they will never marry because they are so unutterably disgusting. Pede dikit ngapa? Mungkin cuma bapak ini yg cukup pede dengan dirinya sendiri. In fact, dia salah satu orang paling pede yg gue kenal. Terlalu pede kadang" sih. And again, what a wonderful world we live in.

You're killing me... Dear you , You're killing me very very slowly. Of course, you do it with love, but you're killing me just the same. Did you know that the normal human heart beats 4000 times an hour, 96 000 times a day, 672 000 times a week, 2 688 000 times a month, and 33 million times a year? Well, thanks to you, my heart beats so much less than that. I'll show you why. The normal heart beats once every 0.9 seconds. MY heart skips a beat every minute. It skips everytime I see your picture, remember your face, receive your messages, hear your voice... everytime you say you love me... everytime I miss you... and the list goes on. You see, the normal heart beats 67 times a minute, but mine beats only 66 times. Which means I lose 1440 beats a day, 10 080 beats a week, 40 320 beats a month, and ultimately 241 920 beats the whole time I've been loving you. That equals about 3 days every 1/2 year, 6 days every year, and if this goes on until I turn 100...

It's just another day... for you and me... in paradise Hari ini gue musti supplementary exam. Semacam ulangan perbaikan untuk subject yg gue fail semester lalu. Bodohnya. Padahal gampang. Gue tidur tepat 1 1/2 jam malam tadi. My dear will totally kill me if he finds out. Sayaaang... jangan marah yaaa... Well, anyway. Gue sudah bertekad tidak boleh fail, jadi gue belajar abis"an seharian kemarin. Hehehe... That's as far as my tekad goes. Gue belajar non stop dari jam 1 malam (setelah nemenin a certain someone yg bete dengan harikemarin -nya (hehehe... boleh ku link?). Gue temenin dia ngelewatin hari, terus gue offline dan masuk kamar. Belajar non stop sampai jam 1/2 6 pagi, terus gue merem sebentar. Rencananya cuma 1/2 jam saja, tapi keterusan (disengaja). Exam gue itu jam 9.00 pagi di Biology, dan sepertinya setelah libur yg panjang otak gue (yg harusnya secara anatomis letaknya di kepala, tapi koq kemaren dengkul gue kepentok dan gue amnesia ringan ya?) mulai...

Desperation aku ingin terbang jauh dari peradaban bebas dari himpitan kabur dari kewajiban aku bosan menjejak tanah selalu diam melihat ke ujung cakrawala mencari garis batas surga dan bumi berusaha temukan keteraturan satu bukti, janji penjagaan alam langit tidak akan pernah bersatu dengan terra malam ini dunia seperti menekan kepala membebani bahu semua datang dari semua arah menginjak tubuh memaksa jatuh aku cuma manusia aku ingin hilang... Message received: Kalo kamu ngilang, berarti kamu lari dong? Terus gimana ma hidup kamu? Gimana perjuangan kamu selama ini? Gimana kita? Ga bisa gitu kan? Aku ngerti kalo kamu lagi berat. Makanya itu kamu refresh dulu. Kamu itu bisa. Ah.... what would I do without you, dear?