Aren't you sick of me yet?

I remember you. I remember it was 2 in the morning and you tasted like chocolates. It was a cold winter but we were warm. We were our own sun because then there were we. There were mornings and hellos and we were our own. We were a pair. A lovely pair were we. It was forever us and forever we and there were you and me, us inseparable. There were dreams and plans for forever of forever. Forever we were planned to be. Forever we dreamed, but forever ended for we. For we were too into us and we fell in head first headlong into the bottom of us, and we fell right through and remembered about you and me. And it was again the beginning of you and me and your fault never mine. You forgot about we and I forgot about we and we forever talked about me me me. It was never again we. We were never again. And never again were we. We started saying never and always and we realized how bitter we were. And then were the only time we would talk about we, because we are now you and me. I remember you. I ...

Tell me... What would you do today if you knew you wouldn't wake up tomorrow?

Jujur ah. Gue kangen pacaran. Sumpe deh. Gue kangen rasanya sayang sama orang, kangen sama orang, diurusin orang, nguatirin orang, bikin orang ngomel" gara" gaya gue yg ngga jelas, kangen super duper banyak banget hal yg berhubungan sama yg diistilahin sama nyokap gue sebagai jadi"an . Hehe.. kok kaya siluman ya? Gue jomblo udah kelamaan neh! Dan yg lucunya, sekarang gue ngerti perasaan temen gue waktu dia bilang dia udah bosen jomblo. Pacaran itu adiktif. Sekali udah ngerasain, pengen lagi pengen lagi. Terus anehnya, orang cenderung kangen dan pengen pacaran sama pacarnya yg pertama lagi, dan biasanya jenis pasangan ideal mereka itu ya yg kaya gitu. Well then... Sekarang, yg nyakitin. Buat semua mantan" pacar gue diluar sana. Mohon maaf tapi gue harus jujur. Here's a little Michael Bolton for y'all. I said I loved you but I lied... Hahaha.... Yeah baby!

Mulai semester baru, udah kira" semingguan. Laptop gue rusak, jadi gue ngga tau kapan gue bakalan bisa online. Sekarang cuma bisa online, posting, cek email, dan chatting di uni. Entah kenapa, jadi lebih betah di uni daripada dirumah. It's a house, not a home. Terang aja gue lebih hepi di uni. Sekarang ngerjain 5 subjek. Overload. Both academically, and brain-functionality. Want to see my head explode?

manusiaini: appreciate juga orang yg beda pendapat ma lo...bukannya ngebnci..beda itu biasa... * *Komen dari posting gue yg sebelum ini. Oh... gitu. Loe mau tau yg sebenernya??? Boleh. Gue udah diem cukup lama dan sepertinya loe ngga tau kalo elo itu salah. Iye, salah! First of all, gue ngga pernah benci ama loe. Gue benci kelakuan loe! Tapi sekarang, udah kejauhan. Gue udah ngga bisa sabar lagi sama elo. Iya, sekarang GUE BENCI ELO ! Puas sekarang?! Setiap kali kita jadi debat, loe tau kenapa? Karena ELO yg ngga respek pendapat GUE! Elo selalu naro semua pendapat elo di bawah idung gue dan loe nganggep as if pendapat gue itu ngga penting. Gue bilang biru, loe bilang salah. Gue bilang ini, loe bilang itu jelek. Bagusan pendapat elo! Pikiran elo! Pandangan elo! Loe kira gue tahan dibego-begoin terus?! Loe sadar ngga sih?! Loe kira gue segampang itu mutusin hubungan sama orang?! Enggak! Catet tuh ye. Loe harus sadar kalo apa yg loe bikin itu udah kelewat parah sampe gue ngga tahan lagi ...

Sekitar minggu lalu gue kebangun dari tidur siang dan mimpi yg sangat" ngga enak. Inti mimpinya ngga penting, tapi yg jelas selama sekitar 30 menit setelah gue kebangun, gue cuma bisa diem di atas kasur sambil mikir. Saat itu gue sadar bahwa gue sudah kehilangan satu hal yg sangat" gue sayang, tapi gue ngga pernah menghargai keberadaannya. It's true. You never know what you've got til it's gone. Mine has left. Ngga usah sedih gitu. Ngga ada yg mati kok. At that moment gue sedang mondok dirumah temen gue, dan semua orang ngga ada dirumah. Mereka pada ke S'pore dan gue jagain rumahnya sekalian nginep soalnya rumah gue super kosong. Gue sendirian untuk sekitar 3 harian deh. Gue mimpi itu hari pertama, dan ngebuat 2 hari berikutnya miserable banget. Gue kebangun dengan perasaan sepi dan sendirian. Gue ngga ada temen yg bisa gue ajak ngobrol vis-a-vis, ngga ada peliharaan yg bisa gue gangguin, dan terlebih lagi, gue ngga ada keluarga yg bisa bikin gue ngerasa lebi...

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