I'm Blue

aku memijak lembaran lama malam tadi
harap cemas
ternyata masih rapuh
masih jatuh
sakit

rasanya hampa
kosong
sendiri
bentuk teman dari bayang
imaji maya
ternyata kaca

wajah sembab
tidak familiar dengan air mata
tatap tetesan bagai janin asing
aborsi perasaan
lahir 3 tahun terlambat
mati dalam kandungan

seandainya ada diare memori
ingin kulepas kamu dari lilitan ingatanku
tapi ternyata kamu masuk lebih dalam dari itu
hiasi aliran darahku
dan aku
dingin

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