Gue lagi seneng campur sedih soalnya temen gue ada yg mau for good balik ke indo. Hix. Gue yakin Anggi pasti kenal. Rico, gi, Rico. Gue telp dia kemaren n dia bilang dia mau balik ke sini hari jumat, disini 1 minggu, trus abis itu dia mo ke kuala lumpur trus langsung ke jakarta 4 good. Bt ga seh? Banyak bgt lagi anak Grj yg mau 4 good. Pasti bakalan sepi bgt neh. Hayaaa..... Hix. Sedih. Tapi seneng juga seh kemaren uda ngobrol 2 jeman gitu. He3. Uda dulu ah. Mo pulang. Laperrrrrrr......

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