Aren't you sick of me yet?

Sekarang gue paham arti santai. Pulang kampung memang paling enak. Gue hepi banget dah! Gue tau sekarang rasanya tidak stress. Hidup itu indah di rumah sendiri. Gue bener" ngga stress lagi. Jerawat" terkutuk hilang, punggung jarang tegang, rahang jarang bunyi", pokoke semua jenis" gejala stress hilang dari badan gue. Bahagianyaaaaa..... Curhat dikit. Kata mamah, jalan untuk sama" dengan "dia" sudah tertutup. Bekstrit lagi. Payah. A-ge-je belah pinggir. Gue bosen liatnya. Kenapa sepertinya hampir semua seperti itu? Apa gue yg aneh karena gue beda? Akhirnya ketemu juga.... and I found out that someone else can mean more to me than myself. Thank you for showing me that. Thank you for opening a new door for me. I needed the fresh air. I just wish we didn't have to hide. Gue pengen ketemu blogger" yg laen. Contact me people!!! Honey, this is for you. From me and a glass of beer (not drunk!). Just The Way You Are Diana Kral...

I've typed this three times, and now I'm PISSSED! Koneksi bapuks yg bukan punya gue. Intinya, gue bete. Contact me! 08561946889 Miss y'all!

Jakarta....kah? Pyro.... sudah pulang ke Jakarta. Belum bisa posting banyak" karena ngga bisa oL lama". Kontak aja kalo mau. Alamat: Kelapa Gading Hp: Belum punya No. Rmh: (021) 452-2168 Kangen?

Kemudian, pada suatu hari... Yah, iya katanya sih gitu. Terus kan dia akhirnya ngga jadi bikin apa aja yg dia mau bikin, kemudian dia bilang ya sudahlah. Dia capek. Mau sudahan saja. Tapi masih ditahan sama yg masih mau sama dia. Sebenarnya sudah ada niat untuk bilang sudahlah, tapi koq susah gitu ya? Tidak terjadi komunikasi, cuma ada percakapan 1 arah alias monolog, tapi sebenarnya sedang ngomong sama orang lain. Orang lain itu sepertinya tidak paham kalau sudah tidak dibutuhkan/diinginkan/ditemui/dikenal. Saya sudah capek. Dijamin ngga ada yg ngerti apa maksud paragraf di atas, terus dijamin "itu"nya gue langsung nanya dengan penuh rasa kuatir: "Kamu kenapa?". Aku ngga apa". Jangan kuatir. Orang terakhir yg harus kamu kuatirin itu aku. Exam sudah lewat 1. Besok ada 1 lagi. Gue sangat" males belajar untuk subject yg 1 ini. Foundations of Clinical Practice a.k.a dasar" menjadi dokter yg baik. Gue rasa itu udah cukup ngejelasin semuanya kan...

Time to say goodbye.... Lalalalalalalalalalaaaa (Andrea Bocelli style) Ngga koq gue ngga ada niat berhenti ngeblog. Ngga bisa! Jari gue gatel. The thing is, gue minggu depan mulai finals sampe tanggal 14 Nov. Wismilak everybodeh, en gud lak juga buat yg pada finals sama mid sama tes" yg laen. Jadi intinya, pyro mo vakum. Ngevakum dulu yaaaaa *suara mbak" ganjen*. *bunyi vakum dikejauhan* Bzzzzzzzz.......

I'm a Pisces Chick PISCES WOMAN She likes to be in a dream world than to be in reality. She is weak and sensitive when it's come to "Love". She can cry if her best friend is breaking up, and she can be over excited when her friend gets a new boy friend who is a good looking and rich even it is nothing concerned her at all. You might be surprise to see that she is shy just because she is in love. More or less it will be in Pisces woman. She loves small animal and gifted in training animals. She has sixth senses and she can guess what will happen next, it's her nature. Even she has a good sixth senses, she can not pick or foreseen her own choice of lover. She can not tell if she meet a sincere guy or an one-night stand guy. She likes to buy and pick her own cloths. She likes to dress cute and be cute. Pisces woman tend to be a good looking woman and she has a nice skin. Her hands and feet are small and soft. Pisces woman loves to shop for shoes as if she coll...

I'm a little behind No actually, I'm a LOT behind. Hehehe... tadinya gue rajin banget apdet tapi koq sekarang kayanya mandeg. Ngga tau juga deh. Yg jelas final exam gue mulai tanggal 9 November. Wismilak people! Gue mulai mengkontemplasi kemungkinan gue ngga lulus taon pertama. Kemungkinan sudah diajukan ke muka "sponsor" dan dia bilang..... ya sudah. Jadi, ............... ya sudah. 7 menit lagi gue off. Mau belajar buat quiz jam 3 nanti. Gue belum belajar sama sekali. I've been busy. Geraham gue sakit. Bete. Ada sesuatu yg ngeganjel. Baru baca sesuatu, dan sekarang gue sebel. Ngga tau kenapa. Harusnya udah ngga sebel. Harusnya udah cuek. Berapa kali ngingetin diri kalo gue udah ngga peduli lagi. Tapi koq..... jari" ini masih lemes? Perut masih loncat ke kerongkongan waktu tahu, masih........ sakit? Kayanya gue harus berhenti ngarep. Toh, itu salah gue juga. Be happy with what you've got. (Sayang, jangan tanya aku kenapa. Itu pertanyaan yg...

Koq.... tambah males ya??? Koq gue males banget ya? Males posting gituh. Kayanya.... ngga ngalir aja. Ngga kaya dulu. Sekali posting bisa ajegilebanyakbangeteuyideguegaabisabis. Tapi sekarang..... gersang. Well..... ini something I came up with tadi malem, waktu nyoba untuk pertama kalinya renungan malam pake Alkitab. Katanya... "Come to God and be honest to Him" Kata gue... "Conciousness eliminates honesty" Lahh.... emang gue ngga ditakdirkan untuk renungan malam. Doa gue... "God. If You really wanna do something, do it while I'm not aware. Therefore I won't forget to say thanks. Aaaaameeeennnnn" On another note: Kata mamah kata mamah kata mamah kata mamah..... jangan pacaran duluuuuuuuuuuuu..... nasib.

The morning I cried They took away my sunshine, obscured my piece of sky... and I cried. I looked at myself in the mirror and pitied what I saw. I was pale, a blank piece of paper with a face drawn into it and puffed eyes. A messy mat of hair stuck to the top. I watched the color seep into the tops of my cheekbones, but everything else stayed pallid. The lips are always red, due to excessive biting. I contemplated smiling into the mirror, and decided. I wont be smiling today, but you won't notice me anyway.

Koq males banget ya? Hmm... ngga tau kenapa, tapi koq kayanya akhir" ini semua yg gue kerjain didasari rasa malas. Gue baru aja ngelaluin 2 minggu liburan. Well... sebenernya sih study break, yg artinya saat break gue harus study. Tapi entah kenapa dan bagaimana gue berhasil meyakinkan temen gue bahwa arti dari study break adalah break dari study, jadi jangan belajar! Which is yg gue lakukan (atau tidak lakukan) dalam liburan a.k.a. study break ini. Hehehe... Hidup pyro! Bohongin terus anak" itu! Sapa tau nanti loe bisa lulus dengan predikat tukang tipu. Gue dukung!!! Gue ngga ngerti kenapa gue tulis itu tadi.... Well anyway, gue nyelesain beberapa hal 2 minggu terakhir. Gue bayar tagihan", protes soal tagihan telefon yg 10x lipat seharusnya (gila kan?), gue udah selesai semua visit" gue ke dokter, tapi masiiiiih aja ada yg belon selesai. Gue ngga ngerti. Sekali ngga ada kerjaan bener" sante sante kaye di pante, tapi sekali ada kerjaan semuaaaa numpuk...

Damn! Udah lama banget ya... Hey. Sori lama banget. Lagi liburan. Hehehe... Eniwei, inget posting yg ini ? Well, temen gue tergugah (cieh bahasamu nak!) buat bikin balesannya. Here it is. Thanks Ki! aku ingin ada yg bersandar pada dadaku merasakan detak jantungku aku ingin ada yg menciumku dan tidak kan pernah melepaskan pelukan itu aku ingin tersenyum padanya memaksakan bibir ini untuk bergerak dan berkata bahwa ini sarapan terindah untukku aku ingin membuat dia tertawa agar dia merasa bahagia walau sejenak aku ingin jadi tempat bersandar penjaga tidurnya, menutup matanya dan mencium keningnya aku ingin bertemu dalam mimpi karena hanya disitu aku bisa bertemu dengannya menyamar menjadi pria untuknya tapi aku tahu hanya khayalanku semata karena aku tahu aku hanya malaikat pelindung untuknya bukan manusia yg bisa dipeluknya bukan pria yg bisa dicintainya andai aku bisa berkata Tuhan tidak hadir hari ini sehingga aku bisa m...

Haruskah selalu ada judul? haruskah selalu ada judul untuk awali suatu hari? bisakah hari ini berjalan demikian tanpa ada tema dan rencana? kenapa harus selalu ada jadwal dan aturan? hari ini harus begini akan begini nanti kesini lalu berbuat ini jangan lupa lakukan ini harus! jangan lupa! sudah bosan dengan repetisi ingin lepas dari untaian monotoni sebegitu susahkah berhenti mengikuti suatu alur jalan yg sudah ditetapkan? bisakah melenceng sedikit dari jalur yang ada? bukankah tujuan itu tetap sama? nanti sampainya disitu juga? atau harus tetap pada jalan yg ada? penting ya tetap di jalan itu? harus begitu? hhh.... gue capek gue sangat sangat capek hati bisa dipijet ngga sih?

Pyro's Back!!! Setelah beberapa lama gue ngga bisa ngeblog... sekarang gue balik lagi. Jujur"an deh. Sebenernya imP itu alter ego gue. Dia ngga eksis secara fisik, tapi dia selalu ngiter" di kepala gue, just waiting to come out. Well anyway makasih ya dah rela nungguin gue. Gue tetep pyro. Ini cuma satu stage saat gue bosen dengan hidup seorang Pyro dan pengen bunuh dia secara super sadis, dan akhirnya gue come up with imP . Kaya yg gue bilang, dia itu selalu ada dalem kepala gue tapi gue ngga pernah punya nama buat dia. Kemaren itu gue baru aja dapet nama. imP = i murdered Pyro. Lumayan catchy dengan multiple meaning yg sama najisnya dengan kepanjangannya. Tadinya gue pikir gue akan ninggalin Pyro untuk selamanya terus berubah jadi imP , tapi ternyata presencenya terlalu kuat dan nakutin bahkan gue sendiri. Jadi gue putusin buat berhenti pake dia dan balik lagi jadi Pyro yg less violent walaupun kadang" emang suka rada" ga jelas. imP rada" take over...

imP's rap song pyro is dead pyro is dead hell, i'm kiddin', pyro ain't dead i didn't finish cuttin' off her head pyro's just really really sick i tied her up to my bed ripped her fingernails down to the quick broke her fuckin' jaw and made her suck my dick this gonna be over soon don't you assholes worry i'll break her neck put her outta her misery no, wait, i guess not i'm gonna make her die slowly i'm lookin' at her now sittin' here in my chair i fucked her half to death drugged up and bare maybe i should stop this is becomin' such a bore what the fuck i'm talkin' about? i'm gonna fuck her some more! i'm havin' so much fun cuttin' bits of her off hearin' her scream and mixin' blood in her cough i'm gonna kill pyro but you won't miss her, though imP 's takin' over there ain't no pyro no more you want pyro back? you gotta go through ME ...

PYRO IS DEAD I'M TAKING OVER signed, imP

Ini buat kamu... Konsekuensi Wanna wait for sunrise.... with you = gue Love Song/WOW = mantan yg ngajak balik beberapa hari lalu Love Song says: morningg Wanna wait for sunrise.... with you says: met pagi ceria amat Love Song says: hiks kmu lagi apa Wanna wait for sunrise.... with you says: lha koq hiks? aku baru selesai kul. lg ngeprint catetan buat minggu dpn ntar mo kerja knp? Love Song says: gpp udah makan Wanna wait for sunrise.... with you says: blon tuh kamu? Love Song says: baru bangun aku kesiangan Wanna wait for sunrise.... with you says: hehehe kesiangan mo kemana? skrg lg dimana? Love Song says: di rumah temen abis ngerjain project file Wanna wait for sunrise.... with you says: hari ini kerja? masih sakit" ga? Love Song says: maish sii hiaehiea pucingg Wanna wait for sunrise.... with you says: makan dong ntar tambah sakit loh Love Song says: iyah sii nanti bentar lagi...

Ngga tau judulnya apaan (ratapan sakit hati pria kesepian) ? semua kembali seperti dulu dewiku telah pergi luka lama yg tertutup oleh pesona kasihnya terbuka lagi bertambah parah dan membuat suara jeritan yg memilukan dia pergi untuk merajut tali kasih yg baru dengan adam yg lain menghempaskanku ke jurang kepedihan aku tak dapat bernyanyi lagi walaupun lagu duka hatiku becek darah aku tak bisa mengadukan duka pada duka mengeluhkan luka pada luka apa salahku? aku hanya memberi dewiku cinta cinta suci dari hatiku yg gemetar karena siksa pengkhianatan kenapa putih cintaku dinodai dengan kebohongan yg pekat? dia tak peduli saat air mata dan darahku mengalir saat aku meraung kesakitan bahkan menolehpun dia tidak sudi kenapa? sehina itukah aku? apa yg telah aku lakukan? by: temen gue yg lagi sakit hati

Tie me up He puts his hands slightly above her feet and puts the rope around her ankles. He makes a knot and pulls, making it tight... tighter... He looks up at her. "Tell me if this gets too tight" "Okay... Not too loose though. You don't want me to slip off" He chuckles. "No we wouldn't want that now would we" She lets out a nervous giggle. He knows she's scared. She's never done anything like this before. This was her first time. He could feel her legs tremble under his grip. "It's okay. You'll enjoy it. I promise" He moves his body close to her and puts his arms around her waist. He can feel her hearbeat against his chest. He sees sweat glistening on her brow, on her shoulders, on her neck... "I'm scared..." "It's okay. I'm here. It's gonna be fun" She takes a deep breath and lets it out slowly. She's ready. "Okay. Lets do this" ...

21/08/2004 9:45 pm A Letter to God Dear God, I know I don't write to You often. I just need to ask some questions. They won't be too hard to answer. Ask and you shall receive, right? Well, I'd really like to receive answers to some, if not, all of my questions. Thank You, beforehand (because people say you always have to be thankful for everything, good or bad). My first question is one that I bet people ask You the most. Why do You let bad things happen to people? I know You don't cause them but You just let them happen. Why is that? I know they don't deserve it. No one deserves it. So why do You let it happen? People say everything happens for a reason. But why don't I ever find that reason? People say it's all for the better. But why doesn't it get better afterwards? Why does it continue to hurt? Why do we have to accept? God, I'm starting to get sick of listening to people. They give me stupid answers and they act as if t...

Untuk Udo Sayang Udo sayang, jujur aja aku sempet diem ngga berkutik waktu dapet email kamu. Aku pedih juga baca semua omongan kamu, dan memang bener aku ngga tau harus ngomong apa. Aku diem selama hampir setengah jam cari tau apa yg bagus dan yg pantes kamu denger. Aku takut salah ngomong. Takut ocehanku malah bikin kamu ngerasa bersalah, atau tambah down. Aku pingin ucapin kata" klise: "Semua untuk yg terbaik". "Kamu lebih pantes dapet yg lebih baik dari dia". "Ini cuma sementara, kamu akan ngerasa lebih baik" ... tapi aku ngga bisa. Aku ngga tega nyuapin "bubur" kayak gitu ke kamu. Aku ngga kayak gitu. Kamu kenal aku. Aku selalu ngomong apa yg ada di pikiranku, bukan apa yg orang laen mau denger. Jadi ini suratku buat kamu. Pertama aku mau minta maaf. Maaf aku ngga ada waktu kamu butuh. Aku jauh, dan aku harus ngaku, kita sempet jauh. Sibuk dalem dunia masing", dalem kesibukan sendiri". Maaf karena aku ngga rutin cek k...

Just a Kiss "Come here..." "Um, what?" "Just come here. A bit closer..." She draws closer to him and he pulls her gently. He puts his hands on her lab coat... and snaps the lower buttons closed. "They were open. Naughty girl..." "Oh, that" *she giggles* "That was an accident" "Sure it was" He pulls her closer, and they kiss. -Medicine Computer Lab, UWA- Sialaaaaaaan!!!!!!!!! Gue pengen diciuuuuuuuummm.... Bete dah. Ngiri abis gw... :( Kapan yaaaaa....??? My lips are kind of lonely right now *manyun*

No more kicking! If you let 'em kick you five times, they gon' kick you five times. If you let 'em kick you three times, they gon' kick you three times. If you let 'em kick you twice, they gon' kick you twice. If you let 'em kick you once, they gon' kick you once. But if you break off the mothafuckin' feet, there ain't gon' be no more kickin... -Wycleff Jean, Fugees- Don't let 'em kick you around, people. Fight back! Always fight back! pyro -tired of bein' kicked around-

Happy Birthday Indonesia Happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you. Happy birthday Indonesiaaaaaaaa *extra panjang*. Happy birthday to yoouuuuuuuuuuu *lebih panjang lagi*. Get well soon, Indonesia. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Yesterday Yesterday... yesterday I was jobless I wasn't in uni I was still in Indonesia I was still living with my parents I was in high school I was going out with a junior I was content Yesterday... yesterday I have never worked a day in my life I don't dream about what I want to be I don't care about what I want to be I was just fine Yesterday... yesterday I didn't have to work for what I wanted I didn't even have to try I was really lazy I was unorganized I was such an inconsiderate bastard Yesterday... yesterday everything was so easy everything was great everything wasn't great everything was just fine the way it was but yeste...

Tomorrow... Somehow, I always tell myself tomorrow will be better. The day after will be even better. I tell myself everyday. I will do better tomorrow than I did today. Everything will be better tomorrow. Look forward to tomorrow. Tomorrow you will see the silver lining. There's hope behind the rainbow of tomorrow. A pot of gold just waiting for you to pick it up tomorrow. Tomorrow is also the lazy-person's favourite day, because that's when they will start doing everything. Tomorrow. And then what if tomorrow never came? What if I'm stuck in this neverending journey of today, always looking forward to tomorrow and never finding it? What if... there is no tomorrow? What if my life ends today, and all I can remember is yesterday? (but yesterday is another story) At the end of the day I'm always disappointed of today, hence I can't wait for tomorrow. Tomorrow gives me spirit, strength! A new me starting tomorrow! Forget today, because tomorrow tod...

Today... *ding* bus stopped get off bus walk to class look at watch... 10 minutes late rain drops rain drops raining pull up hood walk to class raining hard harder too hard pants all wet bag all wet jumper all wet dripping dripping reached class *click* door opened look in class "shit, I don't know anyone here" step outside open agenda "CVS lecture: Social Sciences Lecture Theatre" fuck fuck fuck wrong lecture room fuck walk in rain dripping cold cold freezing pissed walk into canteen browse for drinks orange juice reach in right jeans pocket money money money $ 1.75 fuck broke walk to counter "$ 1.70 please" hand money fake smile walk to table sit sit sit sit bored sms sms sms bored sun shining fuck walk to computer lab sit sit sit sms sms sms sms browse sms sms sms sms "why?" ... ... "i dont know why.ask me sumting i can answer" sms ...

Untuk Sang morfin[is] ( him >>> me ) hey you.. i think you're right. i believe you now.. i think codaine, procodaine, prozac or even paracetamol are addictive. >>> i told you. why didn't you believe me? you're addicted now aren't you? apalagi morphine. >>> apalagi morphine!!! well,.. sebagai drug dealer, kayanya elo punya stock yang cukup melimpah untuk semua itu. tapi sayang, syaratnya terlalu berat.. :( >>> stock so far masih banyak. syaratnya ngga berat kok. all you have to do is say the magic word, be in the right place at the right time, dan loe akan dapet that morphine you're addicted on. gampang kan? *big grin on face* gue harus korban kerjaan, korban perasaan, korban kesehatan dan korban-korban segala yang lainnya kalo gue mau salah satu dari barang dagangan itu. tapi sial. enak, sih! gue mau ga mau jadi agak terjerumus.. >>> hey, if you want pleasure, you have to be ready t...

And then there was me... So it's official. Marius and I have split up. It was great, but I guess that's what happens to relationships. They end. Not his fault. Gue aja yg ngga sabaran. You never know what you've got 'til it's gone. But it's all for the best (that's what they all say), whatever "best" means to you. So, ladies. He's available. Go get him. Ngga rugi deh. Gue jamin. I met a new friend last week. A stranger . Nice getting to know you, stranger. It was fun talking to you as well. I blame it on a bottle of vodka, but then again, gue ngga rugi. Stop being so stubborn! Take some medication. Sms aren't paracetamols, and that stupid voice is not morphine. You need real medicine, for both your brain and your body. You need help, dude. Major help. And stop telling everyone there's no heaven or hell. That's a scary concept for people who aren't ready. Next time, make sure you ask first. See what you've done? Now th...

??? Just to be frank, I'm not quite sure what to say. You've put up with me for 3 1/2 months, and it's been great. It's been really great. I told you I fell in love with you, but unfortunately I also have the ability to fall out of love with you, and now I'm not quite sure what I feel. I'm not quite sure what I want. I still want you, that's for sure. But I have a very bad tendency to get bored, very easily, and I'm getting more bored every step of the way. It was great. It really was, but I guess things stop being great after a while. It's the same way with us. I just need to be sure. It's still there. I know it's still there, but I need you to remind me where I put it. Remind me where I left it, if I did. Remind me why I fell in love with you in the first place. So if you still feel it, if you still want me, if you think this can still work, tell me. Refresh my memory. Do you still love me? Did you ever? I still remember our de...

Thank you I wasn't in a very good mood yesterday . No I wasnt... I was stupid yesterday. Really really stupid. No, Reyk I'm not mad at you. Kemaren gue down banget karena kayanya masalah gue numpuk aja. Gue cape. Cape hati, cape mental, cape fisik... pokoknya gue cape banget, dan gue ngga punya tempat buat ngomel. Temen gue nelpon gue dengan masalah dia. Dia di kick-out dari tempat kosnya, terus dia minta gue move in sama dia secepatnya ke apartemen, kalo udah ketemu. Minggu depan dia udah harus keluar. Yg punya rumah udah pengen gue banting. Dia di kick out itu sebagian gara" gue juga. Gue nginep di rumah dia untuk pertama kalinya hari senen kemaren, dan dia lupa bilang sama yg punya rumah. Kemaren dia disuruh keluar secepatnya. Bangke... Paragraf ini buat kamu. Makasih banget ya. Mungkin kamu ngga ngerti kenapa aku terus"an bilang makasih sama kamu. Aku seneng kamu bisa ada waktu aku lagi butuh banget. Nanya hal" yg tepat pada saat yg tepat juga, bik...

Fuck!!!!! Don't mind this posting if you're offended by the title. The content isn't any better. Right now I'm pissed as hell coz I'm supposed to hand in an assessment by 10 am this morning. I forgot to put the fuckin lab book in my bag last night and I found that out this morning at the bus around 10.15 am. I'm fuckin pissed coz I never realised I could be so fuckin stupid. How could I have left such an important thing at home? My brain's all fucked and now I'm writing like hell. Fuck!!! I then called up my friend and asked her to grab the book in my room inside my house. She doesn't live with me, though, so she had to go to my house first, which isn't so far and grab it for me and bring it to uni with her coz she's havin a class around 3. So am I. I asked her to grab it for me. She said yes. She called me up around 2.30 just now and said she couldn't get in through the back door. I told her to get in from the FRONT door coz th...

In Mourning Hey guys. Inget birthday boy di posting sebelon ini? Yup, my bro Yos . Well, setelah happy day kemaren hari ini dateng kabar jelek banget. Pagi" kira" jam 8 lewat waktu Indo, dia nelfon gue, buat ngasih tau kalo bokapnya meninggal. I'm so sorry bro. Be tough and take care of your mom. She needs you lots right now. Kalo kamu ada apa" bilang aja. I'll try to make you feel better even though itu impossible. Please be tough. Tadi pagi gue bangun dengan feeling anget banget, padahal heater gue ngga nyala. Ada kejadian tanggal 30 kemaren yg bikin gue... mmhhh.. apa ya istilahnya? Gitu deh pokoke. Hehehe... Terus kayanya gue lagi in a romantic mood, jadi di luar kepala gue bikin ini. Kalo terlalu "mushy" en muluk" ngga usah dibaca gapapa kok. I want a lot of things, especially today I want to wake up to a kiss, to the smell of breakfast being made, even though I don't eat breakfast I want to wake up to his smell beside...

Happy Birthday YoS Happy 19th bday buat YoS , my bro, my fren, my all dat lah. Moga" panjang umur panjang sabar en ngga sering" ngerjain en cengin gue. Pulang Indo harus traktir! Sip dah. Mwach! Btw loe semua tau kan mesin yg ada di rumah sakit tuh yg kalo orang jantungnya berenti terus ditaroin dua plate besi di dadanya terus dokter tereak "CLEAR!" terus pasien dikejutin pake listrik ribuan volt terus mental ke udara terus diulang terus ampe jantung pasien berdetak lagi ato ngga berhenti selamanya? Tau kan? Well kemaren mesin itu dibawa ke kelas soalnya kan kita lagi belajar jantung tuh ya. Terus di samping mesin itu ada bohlam lampu dua biji sama electrodes yg nyambung ke lampu" itu. Nah terus dosen gue mulai charge mesin itu sambil megang dua handle alat itu terus kedengeran kan mulai dicharge bunyinya "ngiiiiinnnnggg..." gitu dari jauh juga kedengeran. Terus dia taro di atas dua electrodes itu terus dia pencet tombolnya terus lampunya NYA...

In a rush Setengah jam lagi gue ada kelas. Tadi pagi ada kelas jam 9 sampe 10 terus break 6 jam jadi gue kerja aja. Lumayan, free lunch and drinks. I'm cool with free stuff. Hehehe... Ke blog inex liat link ke blog orang terus browsing" en dapet ini . I like it A LOT. Buat yg dilink, gapapa kan? If you mind just tell me nanti gue ilangin deh, but thanks for putting it up on your blog. I'll keep going back there again. Daripada gue bengong kan? Hehehe... Buat yg ngerasa: Aku kangen banget, tapi kayanya kamu ngga tau. Aku pengen banget ngobrol ama kamu, tapi kayanya kamu ngga sadar. Tiap hari pasti kepikiran kamu, sayangnya kamu ngga ngerasa. Jadi kapan dong kamu bisa baca pikiranku, ngerasa apa yg aku rasa, mikir yg aku pikir? Aku juga pengen lho dicariin orang, dikangenin orang. Tapi kalo yg ngangenin ngga bergeming ya percuma dong. Bukan maksudku jadi orang yg "pushy" ato banyak maunya. Kamu tau aku. Kadang" aku suka aneh. Aku cuek. Itu juga kamu...

What it takes to concentrate Tadi gue baru selesai lab mayat. Hari ini ngubek" bagian dada en liat daerah" jantung paru" dan sekitarnya. Gue musti ngafalin bagian" jantung, nama" saraf di situ dan arah dan sumbernya darimana, pembuluh" darah arteri sama vena di situ en sumber sama tujuannya kemana, terus musti ngafalin juga lapisan" yg ngelindungin jantung, belom lagi tugas saraf" yg ada tadi dan letak masing" organ di dalem thorax (dada) itu. Kalo di buku lebih enak, soalnya tiap organ warnanya beda, tapi kalo di mayat beneran, elo ngga bisa bedain yg mana arteri, vena, saraf, saluran lymph, otot, dst. Elo musti ngafalin perbedaan struktur masing" supaya kalo loe liat loe akan at least tau itu organ apa walaupun loe ngga tau itu nama lengkapnya apaan. Yg penting elo ngga keliatan terlalu bego di depan anak" yg laen. At least you know something ! Anyway tadi kan ceritanya ada 6 station. Di masing" station ada senior y...

Hell froze over Minggu" terakhir ini hari" paling dingin yg pernah gue rasain di Perth so far. Matahari mentereng banget, tapi dinginnya ngga ketulungan. Gue bisa liat napas gue sendiri. Pokoke parah banget deh. Kapan ya winter usai? Gue males banget deh tiap hari musti make baju tebel" ngga jelas yg bikin gue kaya beruang. Capek ah. Kemaren malem gue nelpon nyokap gue. Ngobrol en apdet" kejadian di Indo. Adek gue udah ngga kejam lagi sama gue. Dia udah mau ngobrol lagi sama gue. Dia bilang mau beliin gue sepatu warna pink en kaos warna item ada gambar hati warna putih. That's so nice. Terus gue juga baru tau kalo salah satu sepupu nyokap gue notabene om gue yg masih lumayan muda marinir dengan anak dua biji yg masih kecil" meninggal minggu lalu gara" penyakit yg ngga jelas en ngga ketauan. Dia tiba" aja meninggal. Condolensces, mom. Om gue lumayan cakep lho. May his soul rest in peace. Gosip" soal tante" di Indo en di Perth, t...